not sure where I am anymore

My pornography addiction has continued to worsen, in fact it has grown worse than it has ever been before.
In the depths of the darkness though, there is a glimmer of hope.
I deleted 1.5TB of the vile material along with the backup and can say I did not regret it, even with how much money I had squandered to obtain it.
I hope this is a real sign of starting to recover from the long fall I have been on and that I will continue to improve, but I have seen glimmers of hope before, only to fall back even further.
I can say for sure that I do not want to go on with it.
The burden I have felt from the addiction kept growing in sync with how much I downloaded and I became disgusted at the sight of what I was doing.
I have been doing better at praying and reading the Bible and I'm sure that is what has softened me to the point that I could let go of it so I will continue to strive at doing this daily.